Currently Playing The Silence in Black and White By Hawthorne Heights Ohio Is For Lovers see related

Well let's see.  Today was uneventful although there was an assembly where the whole school administration bull shitted their way through everything happening in the school.  I still don't feel safe there!  Especially when they only sit around and SAY they are doing something.  Let me tell you one thing, SAYING and DOING are two very VERY different things my friends. 

Well in other news, I went shopping tonight and got this AMAZINGLY cute white and brown shirt with a logo and picture saying 'Malibu' on it and it had a beach scene.  Omigoshsocute.  ^_^;;  I also got a beautiful pair of white capri's.  Although those who know me, know I hate light colours, but I mad an exception, just this once.  I am more of a darker person, although sometimes it dosn't show.  I tend to wear large amounts of black and hot pinks with the black, and tend to have a more depressing outlook on life.  But nobody ever understands and never cared on bit, so oh well.  Ttyl!  Comment me!  Later!  Cya!

Ohio is for lover's Lyrics

 Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.
[x2]

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

So cut my wrists and black my eyes.

My final breath is gone (So I can fall asleep tonight)

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
[to fade]

Currently Watching Titanic see related

The above award is for every single friend who has stood by me, you really deserve it.  I personally think it turned out amazingly beautiful, so please, feel free to put it on your page.  You guys have thoroughly derserved it. 

The past few days, I have discovered just how much friends mean to me, if I didn't have them, I would probably end up somewhere on the edge of insanity....bad insanity..not my usual insanity.  lmfao!  I mean, all of you guys mean a hecka lot to me and I think I would be lost without all of you, so thank you, you know, for everything.  -sob-  Especially my buddy ben, midget erin, and redneck kristie!  MUCH LOVE YA'LL! 

I like....watched titanic tonight and I like...totally....sobbed.  I love titanic, it is so romantic!  I mean when they kiss and then jack dies...and then the tears just come down and I don't want to cry, but I have to since....-sniffle-  IT'S SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!  -sobs uncontrollably-

Also, my father wants to see my xanga site he told me.  Let's think this over...I don't think so kiddo's!  That's like asking for my ass beat since I swear on here....GOOD GOD I SWEAR!  -dripping with sarcasim.-  I really don't think I will show my father..if I would.....man...I'd be like..in big shit...

Currently Playing Titanic: Music from the Motion Picture (1997) By James Horner, Celine Dion My Heart Will Go On see related

Life, my friends, is so short, kindel it while you can before it sifts through your fingers like grains of sand on a beach.  Even though I did not know the girl who commited suicide in e-town, I still wish the best for her friends and family, and I am praying for them through these trying times.  I wish them only the best for them and their futures.  Thank you.

Well I have not much to say today except for what is mentioned above.  Unlike some people, I do not show emotion for people who have died and I did not know, but I still am deeply saddened by the curse in which took her life.  I am actually bawling as I write this, since it is such a sad subject, and she was so young, and she had to commit suicide to end problems, if there were any.  I feel bad although I couldn't have helped it.  I just keep praying to God that someone, somewhere, can heal the hearts more quickly than I could.  I wish everyone the best who knew her and cherished her.  Thank you.  That is all. 

My Heart Will Go On Lyrics

 Every night in my dreams
I see you. I feel you.
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

There is some love that will not
go away

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Currently Playing Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge By My Chemical Romance The Ghost Of You see related

I found a horse I desperately want!  Check him out at the following site!  He's kinda expensive for me though...but I'll find a way...I swear it...For a stallion like that..anything...

http://horse.classifieds.equine.com/horses/810327.html

He's a beautiful young stallion!  Fair temperment....I WANT HIM SO BADLY!  I want to do western on him....if I would get him...I swear to God that I would keel over and start like...convulsing...

Well let's see.  I think ash is mad at me for giving her a bad grade on her ag. position.  SHE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!  I AM NOT GIVING HER A FALSE GRADE FOR SOMETHING LIKE THAT!  It means alot to Mr. Erikson and I am not going to lie to the best teacher in history.

On a side note, I JUST MIGHT go to New York for the belmont race....bless my wicked charm and begging skills!

Also, mom and dad might get my western horseback lessons out at wishful acres!  This place rocks compared to fairview farm and stables where I used to ride.  That trainer was a certified bitch!  Amen!  She like screamed bloody murder at me and everyone else there that wasn't a major suck up to the one-hundredth power.  I will learn a ton better at these stables.  Their horses are actually finely bred and well trained, tira's were just a piece of shit on hooves.  I rest my case yo.

Also, I'm so excited for the preakness horse race.  GO GIACOMO!

Also, I hope nick get's a turkey this weekend.  I want to hear all about the bloody encounter and how he is going to use it and stuff.  I love hunting now, I have no idea why, it's just something that is different and not one of the godamn prep sports like cheerleading.  NO AFFENCE ERWIN!  Well that's all for now, leave me a comment bitchs...LOL!  Bye!  Cya!

 The Ghost Of You Lyrics

I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died we'd be together now
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...

Ever...
Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall…
If I fall…
(Down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...

Currently Playing Melt By Rascal Flatts These Days see related

I sometimes don't get life anymore, it just seems so confusing.  One second you love someone to death and the next you don't want to be around them.  Maybe it's shee emotion or maybe it's something more?  I have no idea...all I can say is that I wish my mind worked in a different way than it is.  Everything is so messed up, why. 

Gaicomo won the Kentucky Derby!

Well let's see.  Although my parents would never let me get a horse, I have been looking at some arabians and thoroughbreds for sale around the country.  I have been pin pointing my efforts on a thoroughbred since they do combine speed and elegance, intelligance and ferosity.  They have unleashed speed and they have a constant positive outlook on the track ahead.  I'd prefer a grey thoroughbred colt, simply for the pleasure of riding western and english and breeding.  I would love the breed him to a mare and get a high quality thoroughbred colt, that would just rock.  Also, instead of a thoroughbred, maybe an arabian?  Something simple but so pleasureful to show.  Arabians combine brains and wits and speed and endurance.  They are used to being worked hard but they also maintain their flashy and showy side, they always are willing to please.  I would like a chestnut arabian stallion and name it something rare and delicate, something nobody else has ever named a prestigious stallion like that before.  I would prefer the foal having 'Code Reddd' lines.  That sire rocks!  He is trained in all areas and has a confirmation to kill even the best trained horse judge.  He comes in, winning alot of his shows and has a body so elegant, anyone would turn to jello at the sight of the young stallion!  I love him.

Anyways....I'm having second thoughts, and my friends probably know what about.  If you want to know, any of my CLOSE friends, feel free to call me or e-mail me or aim me.  However you can get ahold of me.  Well ttyl.

These Days Lyrics

 Hey baby, is that you?
Wow your hair got so long
Yeah, yeah I love it, I really do
Norma Jean, ain't that the song we'd sing in the car
Driving down town, top down
Making the rounds
Checking out the bands on Doheny Ave.

Yeah, life throws you curves
But you learn to swerve
Me, I swung and I missed
And the next thing you know
I'm reminiscin'
Dreamin' old dreams
Wishing old wishes, like you would be back again

I wake up and teardrops
They fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to
And then
I head off to my job
Guess not much has changed
Watch the clock
Head for home
Check the phone, just in case
Go to bed, dream of you
That's what I'm doing these days
Yeah, that's what I'm doing

Someone told me
After college, you ran off to Vegas
You married a rodeo cowboy, wow
That ain't the girl I knew
Me, I've been a few places
Mostly here and there, once or twice
Still sorting out life but I'm doing alright
Yeah it's good to see you too
Well hey girl, you're late
And those planes they don't wait
But if you ever come back around
This sleepy old town
Promise me you'll stop in
To see an old friend
But until then...

I wake up and teardrops
They fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to
And then
I head off to my job
Guess not much has changed
Punch the clock
Head for home
Check the phone, just in case
Go to bed, dream of you
That's what I'm doing these...
I wake up and teardrops
They fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to
And then
I wake up and teardrops
They fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to
And then
I wake up and teardrops
They fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to
And then...